I really thought I had several valid excuses not to do this years challenge.
The last 6 months have been tough. They have also bought me an incredible sense of joy and clarity. Excuse number 1: Turmoil.
I have been home in Melbourne since October 2014 - but will be on my way back home to Europe mid April. Excuse number 2: Transit
My Mum died on Jan 19. My family and I reacted in ways that I am still coming to terms with leading up to and after her passing. Excuse number 3: Grief
I have put absolutely no thought into this years challenge until just now. Excuse number 4: Unprepared.
etc etc etc.
We can all come up with excuses but one thing I've learnt from my dear Mum is that my generation doesn't understand what tough really is. I'm not ready to write all about her yet, but the time will come.
Instead I am going to alphabetically choose all sorts of emotions that presented themselves during the tough times. We all have dark sides. I believe the most horrible people never acknowledge they have one. Worst, are the type of people that lose their shit at you for being upset and then blame you for being or doing something awful...
Positive and optimistic people get angry too, and that is OK. We get upset, hurt, grieve and if people put us in a position where we have to fight for what we believe in - we will. It doesn't make us bad people. In fact, it is quite the opposite, it makes us real.
So for this years challenge I am going to keep my posts very short, a quote here a short story there, a gif (is that a word?) or image, on the emotions that present themselves during the tough times... and perhaps even some coping mechanisms and healing techniques too.
It is time to 'Let it go Let it go'
"Here I stand
In the light of day...
I don't care
What they're going to say
Let the storm rage on,
The cold never bothered me anyway"Seriously, copy and pasted quote from the movie Frozen's 'Let it go' song, why won't you centre? I listened to this song for the first time last week... still haven't seen the movie.
This other quote kind of sums it up nicely too.
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| Do I have to credit the source if the source is in the image? |
Happy ##atozchallenge to everyone involved and to the people who complain about everyone else's involvement, I hope you have a great month too.
Here is the link to sign up for the A to Z challenge if you want to join this year too.
- I will try my best to get all the badges up before April 1.
Ida
